typical

2 weeks to go for my so called big day where i will end my full freedom. 

but some refer to victory cos you're already taken. ( for me, my full freedom will be taken from me.)

well hey, we not gonna talk bout my freedom for this post.

hurm, i just hate what i shouldn't been listening to ; i m not yet married until 31st January 2015.

So technically i m still single until that day.

yet 

people, they keep asking/provoke me with those so called silly stupid question or statement:

- cepat cepat dapat baby, jangan plan

- subur ko ni

- ha last period ni?

- jangan planning

- buat baby cepat

- bunting pelamin

- ko ni 'tut' mesti mengandung cepat!

i m tired people! give me a break, i've been through a lot of emotion planning for the wedding, up and down thinking whether he is the one for me. 

can't you see people?

you made thing tough for me.

decision to get married is one big thing for me, decision who to be married with is also a challenge.

decision to have baby? when i  don't even SAH in married yet ??

you people

so typical. 

32 days to happiness

i lost the feeling..

the feeling and the idea i have 8 years ago,

the feeling and idea towards "ultimate marriage"  & "endless love"

the feeling of being happy  & may be deeply in love.

i can't feel that feeling in me now.


Only Allah know how lucky i m to have someone who willing to accept me.


the whole idea of getting married at this age,

now i find it very confusing.

hanya ALLAH yang maha mengetahui what i feel inside.



it 30% to go to complete my 100 days to happiness count.

indeed i m 90%  scared to the death.

oh over!

may ALLAH ease everything for me.