my kind of family

when we ( my siblings and i ) grew up, my mom & my dad teach me how to  thing independently. 

now we' re getting older, and independent.

however, my mom & my dad still around to support  us when we needed.

i m not claimed, we were super happily ever after type of families.

but, 

family will be around when we needed!

thanks being a part of me.

thanks for being my families.

mama & baba.

compromise

22 days of happiness.

people keep asking me how my  marriage life going on?

erm

i m doing fine, with little adjustment here & there.

opps

we re doing fine.

i do comprised this time.

a lot.

11 days of happiness

i was wrong before.

about the whole idea of getting married & being in marriage.

and 11 days i learn that not what in your mind, is always right.

Alhamdulillah.

i am a happy wife.

typical

2 weeks to go for my so called big day where i will end my full freedom. 

but some refer to victory cos you're already taken. ( for me, my full freedom will be taken from me.)

well hey, we not gonna talk bout my freedom for this post.

hurm, i just hate what i shouldn't been listening to ; i m not yet married until 31st January 2015.

So technically i m still single until that day.

yet 

people, they keep asking/provoke me with those so called silly stupid question or statement:

- cepat cepat dapat baby, jangan plan

- subur ko ni

- ha last period ni?

- jangan planning

- buat baby cepat

- bunting pelamin

- ko ni 'tut' mesti mengandung cepat!

i m tired people! give me a break, i've been through a lot of emotion planning for the wedding, up and down thinking whether he is the one for me. 

can't you see people?

you made thing tough for me.

decision to get married is one big thing for me, decision who to be married with is also a challenge.

decision to have baby? when i  don't even SAH in married yet ??

you people

so typical. 

32 days to happiness

i lost the feeling..

the feeling and the idea i have 8 years ago,

the feeling and idea towards "ultimate marriage"  & "endless love"

the feeling of being happy  & may be deeply in love.

i can't feel that feeling in me now.


Only Allah know how lucky i m to have someone who willing to accept me.


the whole idea of getting married at this age,

now i find it very confusing.

hanya ALLAH yang maha mengetahui what i feel inside.



it 30% to go to complete my 100 days to happiness count.

indeed i m 90%  scared to the death.

oh over!

may ALLAH ease everything for me.

throwback

lately, i feel that the moving on phase coming too fast.

i can't handle it.

how bout if i still in love with the past? the past that i left behind?

or

it just i scared of the future?

will future will be better?

no one can't tell me.

new start: Accept the Reality but change your point of view.

Salam. 

new start. 

3rd blog. 

because its new..

not me, but my point of view.

perhaps.


its me again, 
S