gagal lagi

gagal lagi.
mungkin kifarah pada dosa2 lalu.mungkin kenyataan pada apa yg di ungkap dulu.mungkin realiti pada yg diidam kalbubenar kata- kata itu satu doadan benar benar menjadi nyata.maafaku pernah tersilap katadulu pandangan aku berbedadulu aku tidak serupamasa mengubah segalanya  harap masa mengubah nasib ku juameneguh cinta kitadengan kehadiran nya.

32 days to happiness

i lost the feeling..

the feeling and the idea i have 8 years ago,

the feeling and idea towards "ultimate marriage"  & "endless love"

the feeling of being happy  & may be deeply in love.

i can't feel that feeling in me now.


Only Allah know how lucky i m to have someone who willing to accept me.


the whole idea of getting married at this age,

now i find it very confusing.

hanya ALLAH yang maha mengetahui what i feel inside.



it 30% to go to complete my 100 days to happiness count.

indeed i m 90%  scared to the death.

oh over!

may ALLAH ease everything for me.